Don’t Hide Your Light

shine your lightWe all hide bits and pieces of who we really are. Lillie Leonardi was no exception. But when the truth of who you are is buried so deep that you’re living a lie, the spiritual disconnect causes untold stress.

Lillie is a mom and grandma. She was also an FBI agent serving as a Community Outreach Specialist who had spent a quarter of her life in law enforcement. Being a woman in the testosterone-fueled world of guns and violence is hard enough. But when you’re a woman who hears from angels and knows and feels their power, the experience is enough to make you want to flee your body and mind. And that’s exactly what Lillie did.

Denying her feminine essence in order to be perceived as an “equal” alongside her male counterparts, she traded her soft sentimental persona for the “tough cop” image. Until 9/11 when her spiritual self accessed a vision that was a wake-up call from her soul.

Lillie saw a field of angels on the Shanksville crash site of Flight 93 in which all passengers had perished. It was a sacrificial endeavor which had apparently moved Heaven itself, and the field of angels–hundreds of archangels, their wings arched up toward the sky–were assisting the brave souls home.

Much as she questioned and debated it, the vision wouldn’t let go. Lillie did all she could to disown the compelling images. But there’s only so much the body can hold inside. Soon, Lillie’s body began to crumble under the weight of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). The field of angels continued to intrude into her consciousness and demand acknowledgement.

Lillie writes in In The Shadow of a Badge — 9/11 A Memoir about Flight 93, a Field of Angels and my Spiritual Homecoming, “Should I speak out and tell the world about God’s field of angels? Should I maintain my call to service and continue to risk my health?”

Through a series of synchronicities, Lillie is told what to do and pays attention to the messages. What follows is a compelling read of how the author made the commitment to spiritual surrender, choosing to follow her heart instead of her head.

To me, the message of the book is clearly this: Embrace the truth of who you really are. We are all, to some extent, guilty of hiding our real selves, masking our true identity and struggling to more closely resemble those the world celebrates. But you and I are unique. And if we choose to show up as our authentic selves, life will open up in unimaginably beautiful ways.

Lillie Leonardi discovered this the hard way. We can learn the lesson from her book where she voices her personal truth. We can choose to show up in the world as you and I, in complete alignment with our gifted uniqueness.

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  1. coolcalmwarm on April 13, 2013 at 4:37 am

    I work in the healthcare field. One of my patients was a very sick 87 yr old, who was slowly fading away. Her very supportive family decided that she had suffered enough and decided to make her hospice care. They asked me, “How many more days? “. I said pointing up to heaven, ” God is the one who decides that but I am guessing for 2 to 3 more days. ”

    Her family decided to bring all of her relatives and their pastor to the hospital. They asked me to join with them for payer- she was a deeply religious person. I agreed. The patient’s breathing grew more labored. Her pastor finished the prayer and her face suddenly became very calm. She stopped breathing.

    The following sounds crazy to a scientific mind – suddenly I felt very light, as if all the burdens were lifted from me and I could see or feel light coming from above and her soul being lifted up. It is very difficult to describe this in the current realm of scientific knowledge. Her pastor too felt the same sensation and we both acknowledged it. God does perform miracles – of this I am certain.

    • umagirish on April 13, 2013 at 2:00 pm

      Yes, I completely resonate with everything you’ve written here. Death is a scary experience if you approach it with fears. Death can be a very peaceful experience if you meet it with acceptance. And not everything can be explained in scientific terms. It is important to be able to exist in the space of mystery and magic. What a powerful experience that must have been for you!

      • coolcalmwarm on April 13, 2013 at 6:42 pm

        Surely, an unforgettable experience! I have personally witnessed other miracles.

        Another story is of a 40 yr old man who got severely injured in a motor vehicle accident. He had multiple fractures , intracranial bleed, intestinal laceration, an open abdominal wound which wouldn’t heal and was comatose . One by one his organs started to shut down. He was on life support. He went into severe acute renal failure and was initiated on hemodialysis. His condition deteriorated and all of his doctors gave up hope. They discussed with his family who agreed with making him hospice care. He was taken off life-support and transferred to the palliative care unit.

        Two days later, we got a call from the Palliative Care Physician. The patient had opened his eyes and was following simple commands. His blood work should that his renal function was improving.

        He was then transferred back to the Medicine Unit. He made a remarkable recovery from then on and was able to go to rehab and return home.

        His recovery was contradictory to our current medical knowledge.

        Miracles do happen. God exists!

  2. umagirish on April 15, 2013 at 12:12 pm

    Yes, miracles are all around us. It is we who block them in our lives by our distorted thinking. Maybe you should turn these experiences into a book!

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